lm

I'm not asking for anything else in return
but maybe just to know that
I will be missed too

strawberry-rainbowship

word got out and i just found out

someone i used to be close to just passed on.

disbelief became anxiety, anxiety to find out the truth

and confirmation only brought about sadness, and a bigger wave of regret and contemplation.

'What happened to you, dear Mel?', were the first thoughts on my mind.

never once would i have even come to think that you would do such a thing.

never once did i spot the sadness you held in your eyes, with the little opportunities i had

and my next thought sent my mind into a whirl, 'What COULD have happened?'.

so then i went on, searching, in hopes, though the slimmest, for any trace of what we used to have.

and what i found only intensified the regret i felt within me.

thinking back, i couldn't help feeling that somehow, i could have made a difference.

a difference in existence. a difference in the life of not only one person, but possibly to hundreds.

im not saying that i should have, because im perfectly delighted with where i am now.

but the thought that i could just didn't leave my mind.

so, to Mel, wherever you are now, im sure you're fine. it's sad things had to end this way, hell, it's sad we had to end the way we did. but whatever it is, im sure that whatever you've gone through, you've left it for a better place, and for that im glad. i will always remember your sweet smile, the poems we used to share, the times we spent together. i know it's a little late to say this (and we only ever say this when something's gone) my only regret was not putting in effort into making the friendship we had last.

B, as how the brightest star, you shine

R, is my little request to always have your time

Entertainment. That's what you are but I know there's so much more

N, is our nonsensical conversations, it gets better than before

D, is all the days with you I still want to spend

O, is for outshining & that's exactly where you stand, friend

N, is how i'm never going to say goodbye

R.I.P, Mel.

death?

what im seeing, reading

it's worrying.

hustle

why the face sad eyes?

breathe

damn all that negativity.
i really love all the empty promises i make about using this space more often haha

fbsd

girls who need over excessive make up just to look just slightly prettier compared to their normal fuck faces are sad, sad creatures. i feel for them hahahaha

facebook makes me not want to start on projects. and where have we heard that before? :)

sia laaa

im gon try to use this space more often
cos recently i've realised that i actually think of really awesome stuff,
i just end up forgetting them all :/
waste of effing talent HAHAHA

earworm

you know sometimes i kinda wish we could just say what we wanna say without having to think about someone else's feelings, just so they know how fucked up they really are, and that hopefully they change (which explains my recent behaviour). but then again, we wouldn't have anything to gossip about, would we? ^^

wzsk

today was supposed to be an awesome day

EXPLOSION!

naaaahhhbuaaaayyyy streeessss sia
the brain is not meant for such a tremendous increase in usage in such a short period of time after not being used for sooooo bloodyyyyyy longggg ohhh nooooooo

robosonics

a little bit of eye liner and you're good to go.

heaven can wait

sometimes you just have to set your ego aside
and remember that the love that you have for the other person is way more important than winning

catch-22's the word

yun loong stupid gay boy he's so shingz

uhhhhhhhh

i will come back here again when i find the right word for it

bunny hunches

i miss my girlfriiiiieeeeeennnndddd

neerrggghhhhhhhhh

today
i realised that no matter how much i love you
if im not in the mood im a horrible listening ear/shoulder to cry on ._.
sooreeehhh

s

months from now when we truely hardly get to talk at all i honestly worry and wonder how we're gonna be. i bare everything and all that sums up is chide chide and more chide :/
life of a dude i guess but im willing to give it all wooooo goodnight

bfh

i am lost.

candies

you know in exam papers, sometimes there's a page with "THIS PAGE IS INTENTIONALLY LEFT BLANK". don't you realise it's really not actually blank?

murmaider

okay one more episode of superjail and im going to sleep promise.
maybe two if the current one is naiiiseeee :D