Uno

so my hopes of getting a new CPU have more or less been dashed, with my mom confirming that she still wants to get my 7-ish year old com fixed ._. sian x10000000

For What It's Worth

reinventing your exit

so today marks the first day of my self-imposed exile from just about everything. no twitter, no facebook, and i'll prolly be ignoring my phone most of the time lest it's important. will be using this space just to keep track of stuff tho, and i plan to do this for about a week or so but we'll see how it goes.

nothing's wrong i guess. same old same old but i just felt like doing this. been having the usual barrage of thoughts; some old, some new, and i foresee more to come in the near future. hopefully i get them down here somehow, cos i really surprise myself with how smart i am sometimes (haha).

so right now im currently surviving on just over 2 hours of sleep from the previous night. wasn't a really great 2 hours either. The Expendables today was jusssst a little over O-K. nice action, cliche storyline. i actually had a lot more in mind that was meant for this page, but i kinda forgot what it was about (as usual). i somehow have this really vague idea it's something about how people around me are sometimes. will leave it for another time i guess (if i ever remember it).

imyb.

*inserts little heart*

if only i had a jet pack

it was hard to say

but i miss you

bye bye

limits

i think i should move

hollywood

don't think too much

internal combustion

i can't put how i'm feeling into words

i think i need more alone time, and not alone time doing work. but at the same time i feel reluctant not to lead the life that i normally would, for fear for my friendships, and for my sanity. everyday i feel like i'm about to explode, because of all the things i want to say. and because of the way i have to act in front of everyone. it's been just over a week and i must admit, sometimes it feels kinda surreal, and not in a good way either.

i think what i wanna say right now is that, i listen all the time. i ask, i hear you out, and i try my best to offer whatever comfort i can in my current state of mind.

but, who listens to me?

i really, really, need to be alone.

my beautiful rescue

for a single moment i want to feel like the universe isn't about to crush me and my heart isn't about to explode.

i would kiss you and tell you i love you and ask you please not to go.

16

So I wonder what I'll be doing
On what would have been our sixteenth.

butt cheeks

i feel geuuuudddddd

for now

so far so bad

it kinda sucked how i was completely forgotten

miserable at best

life's unpredictable, putting you through hardships when you least expect it.

the best thing you can do is to suck it up and take it like a man, and try to turn it around.

now, if only it were that easy.

im friggin cold.

yay kill me

so here it is

i feel rather lost at the moment.

but i put up a strong front in front of everyone

because i don't want, or need, the pity.

i just need time (or maybe something else).

letters to you,

i write in despair.

oh dear,

what a nightmare.

p.s. hi Rowena

bleed

Am I the cause of my own demise?

6

sorry doesn't cut it.

but then again, who's blaming you?

the fuck man, seriously

i promise never to let such a thought enter my mind again. ever.

cake

oh god, the irony of it all.....

love is nothing without sacrifice

I keep spacing out every other second it's almost funny. Almost