limits

i think i should move

hollywood

don't think too much

internal combustion

i can't put how i'm feeling into words

i think i need more alone time, and not alone time doing work. but at the same time i feel reluctant not to lead the life that i normally would, for fear for my friendships, and for my sanity. everyday i feel like i'm about to explode, because of all the things i want to say. and because of the way i have to act in front of everyone. it's been just over a week and i must admit, sometimes it feels kinda surreal, and not in a good way either.

i think what i wanna say right now is that, i listen all the time. i ask, i hear you out, and i try my best to offer whatever comfort i can in my current state of mind.

but, who listens to me?

i really, really, need to be alone.

my beautiful rescue

for a single moment i want to feel like the universe isn't about to crush me and my heart isn't about to explode.

i would kiss you and tell you i love you and ask you please not to go.

16

So I wonder what I'll be doing
On what would have been our sixteenth.

butt cheeks

i feel geuuuudddddd

for now

so far so bad

it kinda sucked how i was completely forgotten

miserable at best

life's unpredictable, putting you through hardships when you least expect it.

the best thing you can do is to suck it up and take it like a man, and try to turn it around.

now, if only it were that easy.

im friggin cold.

yay kill me

so here it is

i feel rather lost at the moment.

but i put up a strong front in front of everyone

because i don't want, or need, the pity.

i just need time (or maybe something else).

letters to you,

i write in despair.

oh dear,

what a nightmare.

p.s. hi Rowena

bleed

Am I the cause of my own demise?

6

sorry doesn't cut it.

but then again, who's blaming you?

the fuck man, seriously

i promise never to let such a thought enter my mind again. ever.

cake

oh god, the irony of it all.....

love is nothing without sacrifice

I keep spacing out every other second it's almost funny. Almost